Links to Madeira Desouza Works Online

Content by Madeira Desouza Online:

Baja Clavius written and illustrated by Madeira Desouza — http://bajaclavius.com/

Desouza of Vegas — http://desouza.vegas

Digital Male Art by Madeira Desouza — http://digitalmaleart.com

Gay Macho Fantasies Zone — Madeira Desouza on Tumblr — http://gmfzone.net/

Macho Digital Art on Tumblr — http://machodigitalart.com/

Macho Face on Tumblr — http://machoface.com/

Madeira Desouza (main site) — http://madeiradesouza.com/

Madeira Desouza in QVegas Magazine — https://gay.vegas/magazine/qvegas/the-thankful-issue-2016/digital_male_art

Madeira Desouza on Amazon.com — https://www.amazon.com/Madeira-Desouza/e/B008HL3B3C

Madeira Desouza on DaddysHere.com — http://www.daddyshere.com/madeira-desouza

Madeira Desouza on DeviantArt — http://desouzaofvegas.deviantart.com/

Madeira Desouza on Facebook — https://www.facebook.com/madeira.desouza

Madeira Desouza on Google+ — https://plus.google.com/+MadeiraDesouza

Madeira Desouza on LinkedIn — https://www.linkedin.com/in/madeira-desouza-34434049

Madeira Desouza on Patreon — https://www.patreon.com/madeiradesouza

Madeira Desouza on Pinterest — https://www.pinterest.com/madeiradesouza/

Madeira Desouza on Twitter — https://twitter.com/machodesouza

Madeira Desouza on YouTube — https://www.youtube.com/user/desouzamadeira

Mondo Macho Las Vegas – rougher stuff — http://mondomacho.com/

Moon Men Deep Inside — http://moonmendeepinside.com/


Sexual Behaviors

A 100% free version of the Moon Men Deep Inside (MMDI) stories is available at no obligation to purchase anything: Go to BajaClavius.com.


sexualized violence of a ritualized suspension hanging

Science fiction is famous for characters, behaviors, and ideas that venture way beyond the envelope of conventional storytelling. These are well-known realities celebrated by science fiction writers and readers alike.

I chose to push the boundaries far beyond what I imagined some readers would find objectionable in science fiction written with gay male themes and characters.

The men in the fictitious world of tomorrow that I created for my science fiction time travel adventures are far more violent and preoccupied with sex compared to what we know to be true today of gay men.

The time travel agents I created find gay sex pleasurable, yes, but they sexually manipulate men as part of their secret mission to change the past. Sometimes they behave as bullies. Sometimes they force themselves sexually upon unwilling men. There is sexualized violence in this fictitious world of tomorrow that I have created. Are you ready for any of this?

Gene Roddenberry Wisdom

Sometimes it is important to go where no man has gone before, as you’ve heard it said. I interviewed Star Trek creator Gene Roddenberry in Los Angeles decades ago when I was producing a radio documentary. He admitted to me that he had deliberately toned down the depictions of human sexual behavior and moral codes of Captain James T. Kirk and other characters in the original Star Trek. Roddenberry was not hesitant to tell me that he wanted the audience in those days not to be put off. But, here’s what he as a writer believed would in the future become acceptable sexual behaviors and moral codes: People will have sex with whomever they chose and not have to deal with societal guilt trips.

Beyond Roddenberry

I chose to be more fluid and dangerous with depicting human sexuality than Roddenberry allowed with Star Trek from the 1960s to his death in 1991. I depict gay male characters who enjoy sex with men and put them in storytelling situations in which they behave in ways we today would consider to be sexually immoral and in direct violation of many current laws. I believe that morale codes and laws in the future will barely resemble what we’ve got today.

Just Say “No” to Feminized Gay Males

I also depict gay male characters who are masculine. They behave and speak in ways that are recognizable as masculine. In my science fiction time travel adventures I deliberately avoid depicting any feminized gay men who talks like females talk or who behave like females behave. I have just said “no” to depicting feminized gay males. Period.

In contrast to what you will easily find elsewhere, the gay characters that I create are without common stereotypes and clichés associated with gay men in the culture of the United States of America today.

Let me be politically incorrect and spell things out clearly: In my work you won’t find any limp-wristed, feminine-acting gay men like you find on American television [Finding Prince Charming], and in film [Blazing Saddles].

If you are entertained by those stereotyped traits in gay men, then I know you will not be happy with my writing or my illustrations. What I create and produce is for gay men who prefer their men to act like men—not act like women.

The controversial and explicit nature of my masculine male illustrations intended for gay men  has since 2008 attracted attention and some negative responses. This I accept. You are going to be someone who either likes what I do or are completely turned off by it. There is no middle ground. But, I promise a very wild ride to all who venture out into the stunning near-future world that I created.

Sex Worker Moon Man

sex_worker_moon_man_eBook_cover_Aug_06_2015The adventures continue for MMDI time travel agent Vincent Wauneka.

An illustrated short story entitled Sex Worker Moon Man is the sequel to Mysteries of the Moon Men Deep Inside.

The sequel will continue to expand as additional illustrated short stories about MMDI are released during 2016!

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Preview

[opening paragraphs of Sex Worker Moon Man]

 

sex_worker_eBook_Vincent_foreword“Sex worker Vincent” is the nickname of a young Navajo man who sells his body to other men so he can bring erotic pleasure to them. He provides sensual service and emotional release while he lives a double life as a top-secret time travel agent on the moon.

Vincent Wauneka materializes completely naked inside his time machine, a circular blue glass chamber hidden from discovery by anyone from Earth far beneath a lunar crater named Clavius. Travel beyond the atmosphere of Earth is so prohibitively expensive in the Twenty-Third century that nobody can afford to travel to the moon anymore. This makes the moon the perfect place to conceal the time travel agency MMDI for which Vincent Wauneka works.

His commanding physical appearance cannot be ignored. Well over six feet tall with low body fat, long dark hair that reaches down to the middle of his back, a handsome face, and a masculine endowment all make him the envy of other men. He is around thirty, the optimum age for all MMDI agents.

The blue glass chamber splits open with an unpleasant high-frequency sound of air rushing in from the cavernous MMDI Hall of Time Travelers. Vincent Wauneka steps out of the open chamber and is immediately handed a thick blue robe by a man who is dressed all in white medical uniform and thick black boots. The medical man has long, curly white hair and a thick, frosty mustache. He resembles a guy who was either a Nineteen Sixties rock and roll star or some famous Shakespearean actor from England who stopped coloring his hair and has grown a mustache especially so that he would not be recognized easily whenever he is walking out in public.

“Doctor Oswald,” Vincent Wauneka says as he shakes off his disorientation.

“Agent Wauneka,” Doctor William Oswald replies in his prominent British accent. “Welcome back to the moon. Any medical issues you want me to know about?”

“Dazed from the trip. Normal, I guess. But, a sore neck again,” is the answer. “Happens a lot, Doc.”

“I am scanning you now,” the doctor answers. “Nothing unusual shows up.”

“Cannot remember where I was. I know I was hanged. Felt really awful.”

“Need to complete your debrief, Agent Wauneka,” says the doctor as he motions toward a small booth of cylindrical glass nearby. An invisible door to the glass booth slides open to let Vincent Wauneka step inside. Then, the door silently repositions itself so that he is alone clothed only in the blue robe inside a seamless cylinder of glass. The glass shifts from transparent to opaque and a green light over his head pops on. “Recording your voice now,” says the disembodied British accent say. “You may begin talking as you wish.”

This is what gets recorded inside the booth: “I am time travel agent Vincent Wauneka. I feel as though I was just brought back from the dead. Few moments ago. Suspension hanging. Very fucking painful. Hoisted upwards off my feet. A man’s neck and spine do not break that way. He suffers for quite a while. I felt the sensation of death, itself. A real pleasure in comparison to a suspension hanging. I cannot recall what my mission was. Hope I did what I was sent to do. My mission ended when I was hanged. Now I am here. Alive. On the moon. Need a shower. Some food. A blow job would feel really good as well. Also someone I can fuck tonight in my rack to distract me from how badly I feel right now.”

Sexual orientation of the men of tomorrow

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Science fiction is famous for characters, behaviors, and ideas that venture way beyond the envelope of conventional storytelling. These are well-known realities celebrated by science fiction writers and readers alike.

Yet, I came across prejudice from within the community of science fiction writers of the present day stemming from my choice to write science fiction for gay men. A search took me to a young blogger who claimed that he would, for a small fee, help promote science fictions works using his online presence. Paying for promotional consideration is a standard way of doing business today, and this guy seemed to be legitimate. His online presence boasts an established track record as a writer and commentator in science fiction, horror, and comic books. But, he refused service to me, specifically. The reason? He told me outright in an email that he would not take my money in exchange for promoting my gay science fiction writing on his blog because he felt his blog readers would find my gay science fiction writing objectionable.

This experience proved to be a turning point for me as a writer. I responded to such overt anti-gay prejudice with Mysteries of the Moon Men Deep Inside, now available as an eBook on Amazon. See a preview at the promotional website.

I chose to push the boundaries far beyond what I imagined some readers would find objectionable in science fiction written with gay male themes and characters. The men in the fictitious world of tomorrow that I created are far more violent and preoccupied with sex compared to what we know to be true today. The time travel agents I created find gay sex pleasurable, yes, but they sexually manipulate men as part of their secret mission to change the past.

Sometimes it is important to go where no man has gone before, as you’ve heard it said. I interviewed Star Trek creator Gene Roddenberry in Los Angeles decades ago when I was producing a radio documentary. He admitted to me that he had deliberately toned down the depictions of human sexual behavior and moral codes of Captain James T. Kirk and other characters in the original Star Trek. Roddenberry was not hesitant to tell me that he wanted the audience in those days not to be put off. But, here’s what he as a writer believed would in the future become acceptable sexual behaviors and moral codes: People will have sex with whomever they chose and not have to deal with societal guilt trips.

I chose to be more fluid with depicting human sexuality than Roddenberry allowed with Star Trek from the 1960s to his death in 1991. I depict gay male characters who enjoy sex with men and put them in storytelling situations in which they behave in ways we today would consider to be sexually immoral and in direct violation of many current laws.

The controversial and explicit nature of my illustrations for gay men has drawn attention since 2008. You either like what I do or are turned off by it. I produced Mysteries of the Moon Men Deep Inside with a format to reveal very early on to readers whether my explicit illustrated science fiction storytelling is something they will find appealing.

I promise a very wild ride to all who venture out into the stunning near-future world that I created.

As a further incentive, if you post a review on Amazon after reading Mysteries of the Moon Men Deep Inside, I will give you free access to uncensored and even more explicit illustrations than this one posted here based upon characters and situations in the story.

 

Time Travel Urgency

122615-cowboy-vincent Years ago I met a time traveler. I tried to deny it because it was such an impossible situation. But, I could not push it out of my memories.

During the last decade of the 20th century, I was driving alone very early in the morning through the vast Navajo Nation on my way to the Grand Canyon. Due to persistent nightmares, I had not slept well the night before at a motel where tourists stay when they are visiting Monument Valley Navajo Tribal Park. Well before dawn I was awakened abruptly and could not get back to sleep. So, I hurriedly checked out of the motel and got behind the wheel of my 4×4 to continue driving westward.

I was reeling from the fears caused by dreaming about my impending death. I was distracted when I saw a young man hitchhiking on the side of the road standing next to an old pickup truck. He wore tattered cowboy attire that suggested he had just survived a particularly rough journey. His cowboy hat caught the soft yellow light of sunrise in an eerie way that made him look otherworldly.

Do I stop? Do I just let him stand there alone? I chose to stop to talk with him.

I noticed that he spoke with an unusual accent. He said that he lived there on the Navajo Reservation and explained that he was out there alone so early in the morning because his cousin’s pickup truck ran out of gas. I set aside all suspicions and common sense regarding the risks of picking up a stranger in a very isolated area. I invited him to get in and ride with me.

It took more than an hour to arrive at his cousin’s house in Tuba City. During our time on the road together, he talked about his Navajo culture and lifelong connections to spiritual and physical health.

As a white man from “Back East,” I definitely felt out of synch with him. I concluded that this young man was not what he claimed to be and that he had chosen to wait there by Highway 160 at sunrise for some much larger purpose.

What if he happened to be a time traveler? What if I was on his agenda that morning? Why would he want to focus any energies or time upon me?

Here are some possible answers: He had traveled from the future to interact with me, specifically, on that day. He urgently wanted to convince me that I should write about the top-secret time travel agency for which he worked. And so I listened to all that he told me and I wrote about the people and things he wanted me to write about.

Provocative Science Fiction

dragon_moon_themeI accept that my creative works—and bara in general—will not appeal to a “mass audience” in the gay world. Some gay men have said that they especially like how I depict men so realistically. Others not so much. I accept that gay men who prefer feminized men and the many related affectations and behaviors of feminized gay men might be put off by my depictions and stories of masculine gay men. I use the bara genre (originally from Japan) to be provocative with deliberate intent.

Provoking readers is a very different process compared to provoking viewers with visual works. I chose the science fiction genre deliberately so that my novel would turn out to be emotionally challenging and not at all “safe” in the intellectual or visceral sense. I did not attempt to create something that would make money for me or for others. But, I did attempt to create something that would make readers/viewers think about issues that they otherwise might not think about while enjoying spending time with masculine male characters.

Mysteries of the Moon Men Deep Inside is a science fiction time travel adventure, but it is also true to the bara genre. This is because I depict gay male same-sex feelings and sexual identity with masculine, muscular males that sometimes are violent and exploitative. What does that say about me? Most writers will admit what I admit here: We do not like violence and exploitation in everyday living. We write about violence and exploitation. It’s fiction. It’s only pretend. It’s only art or make-believe. As such, I do not advocate for violence and exploitation in real life.

My target audience is gay males, but straight females also are known to enjoy the bara genre.

I suspect that Mysteries of the Moon Men Deep Inside probably will not be made into a traditional Hollywood movie because the story and characters do not fit into the framework of major motion pictures that tell science fiction stories. Yet, I definitely can imagine Mysteries of the Moon Men Deep Inside would make show business sense as a miniseries for streaming on Amazon or Hulu or Netflix.

This all started when I began writing the story in 1995. At first, I crafted the story so that it would be a straight-line narrative with a beginning, middle, and end. But, that format did not suit my storytelling needs and I became very frustrated.

So, as the new century arrived I chose a different approach. I revised the story so that I could use nonlinear storytelling. That’s when I started using the science fiction genre and time travel as the framework for telling the story. Pretend or make-believe violence and exploitation are readily found in the science fiction genre.

Don’t conclude that science fiction advocates for violence and exploitation. That is not true.

And, I ask you to accept that I am not writing about the kind of civilization or people that I hope actually will exist hundreds of years in the future. What I wrote is fiction that is rooted in science. It’s all intended for you to escape in your mind to a place very unlike where you live right now.

I’ve been told that my work seems similar in feel to the BBC’s Doctor Who and Torchwood television series. I was not trying to emulate any particular science fiction time travel storytelling. If I did anything consciously, I chose to entertain and challenge my readers with storytelling that is unlike most of what you can find today in print, on television, or in movies.

Queer Sci Fi

We gay men typically must settle for stereotypes and hackneyed clichés in sci fi storytelling that has gay male characters.But I chose to challenge the norm when I wrote my time travel adventure entitled Mysteries of the Moon Men Deep Inside. Visit the book’s website.

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I give you queer sci fi principal characters who are African American, Arabic, Asian, Hispanic/Latino, and Native American Indian. My characters can be aggressive, violent, and sexually exploitative–behaviors that in a near-future time lead to success on time travel missions by top-secret agents to change the past.

Mysteries of the Moon Men Deep Inside has been compared the storytelling style and tone of Russell T Davies of Doctor Who and Torchwood fame on the BBC and reader enjoyment is enhanced by original digital illustrations of mine.

Mexican or Latino Hero in New “Moon Men” Novel

Theodore Avila
Theodore Avila
Donald Trump’s statements about Mexicans and Latinos originate within deep prejudices that are harbored by angry older white people in the United States. If you happen to maintain the same or similar prejudices against Mexicans or Latinos as Trump, then you should not read the science fiction novel, Mysteries of the Moon Men Deep Inside.

Available on Amazon, Moon Men, a time travel novel, prominently features a Mexican or Latino hero. He is Theodore Avila, the narrator of the book.

The exact heritage of time travel agent Avila in the book is left open to your individual interpretation. But, the character’s surname can readily by found in both Portuguese and Hispanic populations today. It is pronounced differently in various regions where the name is found. For example, in Avila Beach in San Luis Obispo County, California, the first letter of Avila is pronounced like the first letter of Apple.

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The Story

Hundreds of years from now, a ruthless agency manipulates time to make sure yesterday turns out the way it was supposed to. A secret base deep inside the moon sends young gay men on time travel missions to change history by using sensual tactics to gain power and control over men. This story contains scenes of a sexual nature between adult males.

The Moon

Yes, I do believe that some day in the future time travel will be possible. I’m not so sure that time travel will, as I have depicted it in my storytelling, require a lunar base. There’s a practical reason you’ll learn as to why time travel takes place beneath the lunar surface But, more importantly, I chose to set several episodes of my time travel adventure on the moon under the crater Clavius because I believe science fiction should take risks in telling stories that will be of interest to readers. I chose that particular crater as a way of honoring Arthur C. Clarke and Stanley Kubrick. In the late 1960s, they situated their fictional lunar base at Clavius for the motion picture 2001: A Space Odyssey.

The Agents

At its most simple level, my book is about repairmen. My fictional repairmen have a fairly unusual job, however, compared to repairmen who fix washing machines or computers. They are repairmen who use a time machine to travel on missions back to the past to fix timelines.

In my story, the main reason for the existence of time travel is not to take the reader on a showcase of dazzling technology that produces grand and sweeping high concept adventures. No, not at all. My time travel agents are repairmen whose secret missions are to change people and events in the past to keep timelines from becoming worn down and generating chaos for humanity.

What matters most is the human adventures that they experience as men—not that they are on top-secret time travel missions from the 23rd Century. Their moral code in the future differs greatly from how we gay men of the Twenty-First century are. My characters do not believe in an almighty creator who intervenes in the lives of human beings on planet Earth. The moral code of the time travel agents is a most unusual aspect of my storytelling that will leave your mind reeling!

The Technology

At the core of the story is technology that enables time travel. The MMDI base beneath the lunar crater Clavius maintains several circular chambers that each is made of a transparent blue compound. Each chamber is shaped like a giant hockey puck turned on edge and is large enough to fit one seated man inside when the chamber is sealed tightly. In order for the technology to work, time travel agents must be completely naked when they sit inside the chamber. Their bodies need to be drenched by a thick, milky liquid which enables the technology to work.

Time travel device (giant blue hockey puck)

The Brain

I gave the narrator, Ted Avila, the capability to remember multiple events and outcomes even after he goes back in time and changes the past. I knew that this would be controversial since the human brain is locked within the one timeline, so to speak, that we each inhabit. Time travel stories usually do not deal with what happens to the memories of the time traveler.

As far as I know, the human brain can only process memories from within that one timeline. But, having a character with brain damage that somehow enables him to preserve and recall memories from multiple timelines that he visits proves to be a very compelling storytelling aspect!

The Navajo

One of my main characters is a young Navajo male named Vincent Wauneka. (See this website’s page on illustrations to see much more of this character.)

I created this character out of the great respect I have for the Navajo people and their culture. Unlike the often stereotypical way that Native Americans are depicted in fictional storytelling, in my time travel trilogy the Navajo character will never remind you of the cardboard Indian characters you’ve seen in a lot of Hollywood movies. Within the Navajo Nation is the famous Monument Valley, the site where many iconic Hollywood cowboy movies were filmed, including works by Clint Eastwood and John Ford. Monument Valley is way off the beaten path—no interstate freeways or major airports are nearby. So, most Americans never venture to this remote area. I have consistently found that being there in person in Monument Valley always is an experience of great spiritual and emotional impact.

Because of the personal attraction I have for Monument Valley, I visit this special place in my storytelling. Las Vegas, Nevada is also a prominent locale for what happens in the story.


 

Dawning

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My works as storyteller and illustrator Madeira Desouza began with dawning light during what was a very dark time for me.

Others who produce creative works have expressed difficulty understanding where their inspiration and drive come from. I do not know where to look for what compels my creativity. I only know that I create because I must.

I am guided by the imperative to create. That guidance brings my creative works into the light of day.

I accept that I do not have the ability to control either my creative instincts or my passion to create. Sooner or later what’s in me or what’s passing through me from somewhere else always emerges in my creative works.

Fake Straight

This started as a story I wrote starting in 1990, the year I acted upon my decision to get a divorce. Over the span of a dozen or so years in a marriage to a woman, I had to admit to myself that I had made a terrible life choice. I could not admit to myself or to the world that I was gay. So, I chose instead to be fake straight. I got married to a woman thinking that do so would provide validation for my false believe that I was straight.

Pretending as I did is precisely what conservatives from the Religious Right say is the natural law. But, the simple truth is that lying to yourself every day is not natural.

Straight people (religious or otherwise) seem to know very little about the day-to-day realities of gay sexual identity or what happens when a person feels attracted to another person of the same gender. The people who persist in seeing the world merely as they want it to be are living a false reality. It’s really that simple.

I originally published my science fiction time travel adventure in eBook form on Smashwords. Here you can read an excerpt of that early eBook which contained directly autobiographical material about my failed attempts at being a convincing fake straight person.

Stop Living a Lie

I managed to learn how to accept the inner truth of of my life utterly and without hesitation. As a gay man, I realized in a decade of marriage to a woman that I had to correct what needed to be corrected.

Pretending to be something that you are not is unnatural, regardless of the motivation (religious or otherwise). Pretending causes internal pressure in your mind and body. Pretending affects your emotions and your body in very tangible ways. If you live a lie, you bring upon yourself mental health issues and physical health problems.

I chose to stop lying and to set myself free. I walked bravely out into the light of the truth.

Into the first decade of the 21st century I kept writing and revising the story of my life.  I released experimental and incomplete versions online specifically to generate audience interest and gather feedback that I could use to make revisions.

Smashwords initially published my novellas. My storytelling and characters in my science fiction time travel adventures about the agency known as MMDI appeared online with those experimental titles—all of which continue to show up in online search results. In the interest of fully transparency, I would not as a writer endorse or recommend Smashwords because they communicated to me that they wanted to censor my work. I removed all my work from Smashwords in response because I could not trust them. Nor should you.

The early 21st century was also the time when I began creating 3D digital art for gay men. I chose to jump the huge gap between being a self-repressed man who pretended to be heterosexual and happy to a genuinely happy, openly gay male who creates illustrated stories for gay men.

Reflections of Real Life

One of my early 2008 digital illustrations is “Mirrors”:

Mirrors
Mirrors

That particular work of mine attempts to depict a simple, yet elusive truth: There are many reflections all around us of ourselves. We can choose to see or pretend not to see what and who we really are.

Storytelling for Gay Men

In my storytelling I chose to highlight what happens when a gay man who is fake straight gets married to a woman. I made this storytelling choice so that this would be a cautionary tale from which readers can learn how to live in honesty.

My storytelling for gay men explores male sexual attraction to men; male tendencies towards aggressive behaviors, violence and exploitation of other males; the hunter-killer compulsion all male animals demonstrate; and, the truth that stronger men always enjoy dominating weaker ones.